Want to die no solution to hair loss :(?

i am 18 yr old girl and suffering from hair loss from 3 years nd now so much fed with all effort.i have losen so much hair i look bald under sunlight nd hair is so thinned,i had pcos but periods normal and all hormone test is normal just cyst were there in ultrrasound and now that too size reduced after birth pills so why i m suffering, may be heredity but others girls do not suffer my father is bald nd i hate him for that so why should i care that what he feels after me dead ,me tired of crying everyday hiding from everyone,doctor prescribed finasteride and minoxidil nd said it will take time and improve but i read on net this is temporary solution life long i can't use it ,it feels so abnormal and ugly to getting bald for a girl and transplant i do not want to do as i don"t feel natural but i m not getting painless solution to die nd dn"t want my mother to feel pain after my death